Matthew James Paupst

Matt, i remember the first time i saw you after the sergury that you had on my own 14 birthday, your heart failed..... i kept thinking to my self why? why would god put you through this hell, the look i saw on your face....i saw me at my worst kind of mood, for some reason...everytime i look in the mirrior.... half of my face is me and the other is you...i remember how everyone would tell me that i look like you and i denined it. apart of me hated you because you said you got all of the girls, the truth is i wanted to be you, thats why i copied oyu, i really hated myself, for who i was.....how i acted and what i did, at your funarul i saw so many people crying for you...but now after what we both been through with each other, your more thenmy brother...your my best friend and ill move heaven and earth tto make sure not forgotten if i have to. rest in peace.

 The day heard of matthew's death....i couldent beleive my ears. at first i thought it was some kind of cruel sick joke but i knew my father would never kid around like that. i dont even know why i thought that..........i started to cry, everybody in the room started to cry. i never saw my father cry before and i never want to see it again......just the thought of it killed me inside....i probaly cried for an hour or so.

12/03/08 I hAVE MANY MEMORIES OF MATTHEW. MOST OF THEM ARE WONDERFUL AND SOME ARE SAD.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL HE USED TO FLY THREW THE DOOR HOLLERING "LUCY IM HOME". HE ALWAYS HAD A SMILE , MATTHEW, MY SON WAS THE STRONGEST BRAVEST PERSON I WILL EVER KNOW.I BELIEVE IN ALOT OF THING'S INCLUDING GOD BUT I CANT BELIEVE GOD TOOK HIM FROM ME. I THINK IT WAS JUST PART OF LIFE MATT'S LIFE, MY LIFE, MY FAMILY'S LIFE, AND WE ALL HAVE TO GO ON ...BUT NOT ALONE. EVERYDAY I THANK GOD FOR LETTING ME HAVE MATTHEW AND THE "LIFE " LESSON'S THAT I HAVE LEARNED. MEMORIES ,COULD WE LIVE WITHOUT THEM ?? SOME IM SURE BUT I WILL ALWAY'S REMEMBER BEING THERE FOR MY SON THE DAY HE DIED .FOR THAT DAY WILL BE THE MOST PRESIOUS DAY OF MY LIFE, MATTHEW WAS NOT AFFRAID TO DIE, AND I WAS NOT AFFRAID TO LET HIM GO, BECAUSE I KNEW WHO HE WAS GOING TO BE WITH IN HEAVEN .. MEMORIES WILL ALWAY'S BE APART OF LIFE SOME ARE WONDERFUL AND SOME ARE SAD.PERSONALLY IM JUST GREATFUL I HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL LOVING FAMILY TO SHARE THEM WITH.  MOMMSEY

this is more of a message then a momory.theres not enough room in the candles ha ha: matt there so many people who know your story and half of them well.... most of them ive never even heard of. i probaly will never meet them either. you were always a pain in the butt. i still love you as my brother. and the best friend i'd ever had.i will never forget your voice or your face. i see you in me or me in you. everyone was right, we do look the same.

 

i remember a show called Naruto it was me and my brother matts favorite show we would watch it every saturday night at 9:00 pm this a pix of our 2 favorite characters naruto and sasuke