Matthew James Paupst

Thinking of you today Matthew. Miss you like crazy.

Hey Matt, its been like 9 years 4 months and a number of days. But whos counting huh? anyways..I miss alot, I think about you alot. Ive been through so much. Done so much. Shit dude Im a different person. I wish you were here, you would be 24 right now. Shit...I hope star surfing continues to serve you well big brother. Peace

Hi Matthew. It's been nine years since you passed away. It's crazy because since then so much has happened, sometimes I forget how little of time it's actually been since you've been here with us. I miss you a lot. I often wonder what it would be like if you were still here with us.  I miss playing house with you and you volunteering to be the smelly uncle. I also miss you whistling on the porch. I miss watching television with you, fighting over what to watch. I miss staring you down and making sure you ate all your dinner. I miss talking to you. Life moves way too fast. It's just not fair. I'm especially sad tonight. I feel I've made mistakes in my life and I then thought about you and that day everything changed. Everything. I can remember that day crystal clear like it happened yesterday. I even slept in mom and jim's room that night. It's so vivid and clear and you know it just sucks. They say that with time grief becomes easier to cope with but that is not true. You  just move so fast most days that you have no time to grieve. I miss you so much matthew. Not a day goes by where I don't. I wish time made this easier or that you could talk to be somehow or I don't know. I love you matthew. I hope, somehow in any possible way, you can read this. I hope that you know that you are so dearly missed all the time. You were so great.  I love you so much. 

P.S. The writing on this is probably terrible. I swear I write like a 20 year old I am just so alll over the place with my emotions. Anyway I love you matt :) 

Dear Karen,
Just wanted to take a moment to remind you that you are never alone. Your family, though far away, are with you in spirit, and you are always in our hearts and minds. Please know that Steve is watching over you, and his spirit will always be with you. True soul mates can never really be separated.

I hope you can take some comfort from your precious little doggies. Let them love you and help you to heal...they want to :)

If you ever need to vent, laugh, cry, or just sit silently on the phone, I'm here for you. My cell number is 347-256-7370 and my home number is 603-206-5604, and you have carte blanche to call any time, day or night.

I love you!!
Nikki

         

 

    

Let not your heart be troubled
Let not your soul be sad
Easter is a time of joy
When all hearts should be glad
Glad to know that Jesus Christ
Made it possible for men
To have their sins forgiven
And, like Him, to love again
So at this joyous season
May the wondrous Easter Story
Renew our faith so we may be
Partakers of His glory

 

In My Prayers